As I spoke about briefly on Instagram, my 12th house profection year ended with my 36th birthday last month. Libra is the sign on the cusp of this house in the Whole Sign house system. Considering the shift in my natal chart after switching from Placidus came with some comically sobering truths. ? My South Node is also in Libra. 12th House South Node indicates bring awareness to and integrating past life lessons associated with escapism vs. spiritual embodiment (12th House), codependence vs interdependence (Libra). I am to channel the Libran energy in ways that build healthy self-interest (Aries) through practical routines (6th House) that evolve me individually (North Node). This year especially brought into focus just how much I need to work toward greater embodiment of the potential indicated by my chart as I understand it. I gotta say what I’ve noticed about myself lately has been difficult to accept. But the clarity has also been unexpectedly liberating.
Awareness, Accountability, & Agency repeatedly came up as keywords when I thought back on the most impactful 1-to-1 relationships, collectively represented by the sign of ♎Libra. As ruler of Libra (12th ?) & Taurus (7th ?), Venus issues come up for in particular. With mine in the 11th house, there is a clear connection between my network overall, my closest bonds, and what I value at a subconscious level. Value and how I do or do not express it within the context of relationships is coming up all over the chart. This year in particular, 8th house issues will likely also be activated due to Mars retrograde in Gemini making aspects to my natal Venus.
What’s under the microscope now is how my past relationships & subconscious beliefs about myself and others inform embodiment of my own self-awareness and regard. Realizing how the projections, conditioning, and escapism I’ve experienced through others manifested hurt! I am recognizing and accepting my own choice in each situation. Too this new self-understanding is compelling me to pivot toward opportunities and bonds that encourage or facilitate self-service first. That’s where awareness of my agency brought a sense of newfound freedom. I can sustain my self-respect (Aries North Node) by aligning my self-care (6th House) with my values (Venus). I don’t have to choose between self-preservation and interdependence. In fact, each may very well be a requirement for the other to exist. I created a Mantra for my 1st house profection year to remind myself of what I’ve learned:
“I only need to actively care for & present my true self for others to see its value.
I can trust myself to discern
who does not & who intends to reciprocate.
It is my responsibility to adjust the space between myself and those people and the depth at which I engage.“
— Kori Woo
What I also realized is that I must hone the will and detachment required to set and maintain a clearly communicated boundary as early and respectfully as possible once I realized that my and someone else’s energy are misaligned. During my 12th house profection, I was forced to see the patterns of behavior, and people I let in or avoided and the consequences of doing so. Acknowledging my own role led to some harsh truth regarding what the next steps should be. I am now trying to take responsibility for acting on the information I receive through interacting. I’m also trying to give myself grace (♎) with what I learn about myself because I’m still working to come out of a long period of emotional and physical self-isolation (12th ?).
*After writing this, I’m realizing the Libra new moon also coincides with my Venus Return. The chart shows Gemini on the Ascendant, effectively extending the effect of this lunation through next summer. I’ve already pulled cards for intention setting. Next, I’m going to take notes on that chart and continue this entry in another post.
